This is not a criticism...just an honest question. You post quite a bit of sad poetry. The poetry is understandably the way you feel right now, I get that. What I'm wondering is this though....does posting that help you to get things off your chest and out of your system, or does it help keep your head in that space? I wonder if you were to try to post more positive poetry if it would have an affect on you and your R as well. Kind of like a self-fullfilling prophecy of sorts.
I find, for me anyway, that if I listen to sad music when I'm sad, watch a sad movie when I'm down, lock myself up in my home and stay away from people....I just get pulled down in the mire. Sure, we all need some time to have the blues (no doubt about that), but I find particularly when I'm down that it helps to conciously look towards the positive. Perhaps try to write some poetry dedicated to the positive steps you are taking in YOUR life, how you are going to be a much stronger and better person for what you are going through. Definitely spend time with your buds, do things you enjoy....don't hang around that house when you get blue...especially then, get out and do something you like.
