W has been gone so much lately, it is hard to work on our M. She said she wasn't certain if she would be home Friday. I know it is easier for her to avoid seeing me. Before she left on Tuesday, we briefly talked. I told her I was sorry that I still loved her, but that I didn't know how to stop. She cried. I wish I could stop loving her, because it would make te process of moving on so much easier. I called her once yesterday, and once today. She called me back promptly on both days. I am surprised by that, because she hadn't been returning my calls for weeks, so I had stopped calling. We had nice conversations both times. They were shallow conversations, mostly about her work, but I will take that any day over not hearing her voice. The trouble is, I am saddend when I hear her voice, and then come home to this big empty house. My hope for saving the M is growing smaller every day. She always seems to find a reason to be gone, and her absences are increasing in length and frequency.

I would give anything to hold her again, and to be held by her. Right now, that seems like an impossibility.


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Walk Away
Ben Harper
Oh no
Here comes that sun again
That means another day
Without you my friend

And it hurts me
To look into the mirror at myself
And it hurts even more
To have to be with somebody else
And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Walk away

With so many people
To love in my life
Why do I worry
About one

But you put the happy
In my ness
You put the good times
Into my fun
And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Walk away
And head for the door

We've tried the goodbye
So many days
We walk in the same direction
So that we could never stray
They say if you love somebody
Than you have got to set them free
But I would rather be locked to you
Than live in this pain and misery

They say time will
Make all this go away
But it's time that has taken my tomorrows
And turned them into yesterdays
And once again that rising sun
Is droppin' on down
And once again you my friend
Are nowhere to be found
And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Walk away
And head for the door
You just walk away
Walk away