I'm glad you are taking time to do things for yourself, that's important right now. Your masseuse seems to be a wise woman...she hit the nail right on the head with this comment "said she suspected that I have given my power to W, and that I need to start taking it back in order to find my center and start feeling whole again.".....and you have begun to take back the power by doing things for yourself and working at not waiting around for your W. It's a very difficult thing to do, but very necessary.
I'd give you a big supportive friendly hug if I could...a cyber one will just have to do (((HUUUUGGG)))
You're doing great...good luck with your job, I hope you enjoy it.
