I never saw the show or read the book, but I enjoyed the film. It was great comic releif. I went with a nocturnal friend, to the late show. He dozed a bit(I wonder if he does that on his night shift???), I managed to stay perfectly awake.
The massage was very nice. It may be a while before my next one, but she said she would see me in the evening if necessary. I have three or four more free sessions in trade for the second mirror. This one lasted nearly two hours, with the post discussion. During the work, she asked who had the power in the M. I said I didn't know. She said she suspected that I have given my power to W, and that I need to start taking it back in order to find my center and start feeling whole again. I told her that I basically had given the power to W, by failing to let go and move on. It was a nice massage, and it definitely is nice to be touched. I am tired of being the boy in the bubble. There is a big problem when the only person to touch you during a given day is a cashier giving change. After the massage, I went to my friends coffee shop, and treated myself to a decadent chocolate mousse and some fresh roasted coffee. The maseusse stopped in, and ended up joining me for coffee. She offered her insights on D, having gone through an ugly one herself.
The job starts tomorrow. I am looking forward to re-entering the real world and leaving my cocoon behind. I have lost (or abused ) my ability to cope with solitude. What was once a boon to my creativity has recently stifled it. The ideas stopped flowing when the depression set in. The lack of flow increased my depression. Now I need to dismantle the walls I have built.
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ Life is bigger It’s bigger than you And you are not me The lengths that I will go to The distance in your eyes.....
