Those realizations do hit hard, but sometimes it takes something for us to realize we are doing all the work with minimal payoff.
Quote: She is the only one that can determine whether she wants a R with me.
ABSOLUTELY. We can believe in our hearts and know where we want to be and what we want to happen, but without the involvment of the other person, there is no intimate R.
I thought it was interesting you said you were not going to intiate as much, then you sent an IM, but you did refrain from follwing it up when she did not respond.
Focus on other activities for awhile; we all need to, if only for our own sanity.
