This might seem pretty obvious, but the reality of things is that I'm the only want that wants a real R. I'm the only one that will work towards one. Hmmmm. Pretty obvious hunh? It just was a wakeup call to me this morning. She doesn't care whether we have much if any interaction at all.
As any who have followed my thread know, there never has been much time without some sort of contact. And usually me initiating. It's time for me to actually act like I'm divorced. I did okay last night...she called asking about the star wars movie...and gave an invite which I declined. I did send an IM asking how she liked the show, but she never answered. I went to bed shortly after that. But that's what hit me this morning....I would have sent back a note...even if she was offline. Which led me to realize....yeah, but she's not asking if that would damage your R.
So I will journal my goals: 1) No initiating contact until she has done more of it. No asking for meals, etc.
2) Get the house back in shape....cleaning is slipping 3) Work on book 1 hour per night 4) Spend more time connecting with friends and family. 5) Work on golf game 6) Tell myself to be patient...this is a uphill, through the snow, marathon to a finish line that is uncertain. There is really no reason to perseverate on daily events or even the week. She is the only one that can determine whether she wants a R with me.
And no, I'm not going to expand on any of these.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
There is really no reason to perseverate on daily events or even the week. She is the only one that can determine whether she wants a R with me. 