That moment of "uncomfortableness" really wasn't apparent until she jumped up. Before that it was just more "hot and heavy" She was shall we say "close to a certain point" and then we had kids coming back into the house. It more than anything broke up the action and then the guilt, etc came crashing in. The regret and guilt etc seemed pretty obvious. In retrospect I should have been the one to break it off. Ugghh. She indicated before that she is really concerned with sending mixed messages to the kids and also to each other.
But I'm definitely heeding the advice of not testing the limits. For quite a while I'm not even going to test anything. I am taking my cues in that regard completely from her. If she wants more from our "friendship" then it is up to her to initiate it. I'm scared at this point that it may have been a setback, but maybe with a little time and space that she will have a chance to evaluate her own motivations. I might have started the "heavy petting", but she definitely sustained it.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
