Hi Hope - I just wanted to let you know that you're not alone in that feeling that friendship is not enough. I get that way sometimes too. Sometimes I just want my H to say I'm back or I'm leaving for good. Now, in reality, I really don't want that, but it's hard sometimes to push those thoughts away.
It doesn't sound like you've done any writing lately. It sounds like you're too consumed with your situation and you can't break out of it. Do you remember when you were originally posting, before the name change, and you had a revelation of sorts and you decided to write? I'm wondering if it will benefit you at all to review those old threads? Perhaps you'll discover things you were doing at that time that you're still doing that aren't working or things that are.
