Hi Deb! Wow! You sure have been through a lot in the last few days. You must be totally exhausted .. emotionally AND physically. I know, I remember going through the exact same scenarios!
Right now, if you were me .. I think I would try to distance yourself (more?) from your H. My feeling is that you need to get yourself "ready" for whatever may happen. Your H has told you before that it was over OR that it was going to be over and you discovered that it wasn't .. several times! (I've been there, done that .. so please don't think I'm being harsh on you/your situation.) Don't be such an open book to your H. He needs to know that you really mean business and that you are waiting, watching very closely to all that is going on with this .. but don't talk about it with him so much. I don't have to tell you that there will probably be some very bad days for both you and your H ahead ... your H will more than likely teeter back and forth for a while .. especially at first when he gets great pressure from OW..?
Based on how you are appearing in your posts, it sounds like you really .. I mean REALLY handled your whole situation well. Your goals for this week sound really good. Keep thinking about proactive things you can do for yourself. I think what you are planning on doing thus far is great!! You need to feel like you DO have control of your situation .. and you are doing some very good the things to accomplish that. I know this has been mentioned before, but I believe that now is the time for you to not be so predictable. I think that you just might be in the right frame of mind to start doing some things "different" .. what do you think?
.. Again, I have mentioned the things that I have here .. based on my own experiences. Please don't think I am being hard and/or unfeeling. I know that you will do whatever you need to do for yourself.
