I'll try to stop by OH So Blues thread, but today I'm not sure I have a darn thing to offer anyone. I am having a tough tough time and ready to throw in the towel again. I am so po'd, disgusted, discouraged, everything else. my goal has been to not say one word about ow until June, and to "give it all I've got" until then, at which time I would reevaluate my sitch, and decide if what to say to H. yesterday was a good day. what a difference 12 hours can make. I REALLY need some input/insight from outsiders here. I can't think straight.
I've always known that as long as H is hiding and paying the phone bills, he is still talking to her. I guess I know him pretty well. I came across the phone bill on his dresser this morning after he'd left for work. he always takes out the pages with the call logs. this time he missed the summary pages. In the period from 3/27 - 4/26, he made 58 phone calls to her from our HOME phone. for 1088 minutes. Spent 75.29 on the phone with that whore. On April 17, he spent 63 minutes on a phone call at 13:09....is that 1 am or 1 pm? This was 3 days before the annual meeting he skipped out of at the last minute. Gee, coincidence? I don't think so.
H also spent 103 minutes on his cell phone with her. I don't have the dates. I don't know what to do . I am so devastated. I think I'm just being strung along after being married to this guy for 26 years, and it hurts beyond belief.
I don't know why this should be so hard to deal with, as I said I"ve always known it's still going on as long as he's hiding phone bills that I've paid for the entire time of our marriage.
I don't know what to think or do. I can't even divide how many minutes that is per day phone call wise I'm so low and lost.
