I dunno, I'm in a weird weird place tonight. I passed ow in the hall at work today, she was probably at foot away from me at the most. I didnt avoid her, I looked her right in the eye, and I think it was a "cool" look, although I think my nose may have crinkled involuntarily. She squeaked out a tiny little "hi"...and I thought she looked intimidated. I don't know, why would she look intimidated and squeak out a "hi"?????? I sure remember, quite painfully, horribly painfully, actually, when she had this cold glare in her eyes and a nasty smirk on her face and she walked with a wiggle in her a$$ and a toss of her head. And I was miserable and depressed and tearful and wanted to die. I can't figure out why she would bother to squeak out "hi"...
This happened within an hour of when I was praying for strength to forgive her.
I also parked purposefully 2 spaces over from her this afternoon, I felt strangely calm in choosing to do so. it just all feels so weird. I don't think she saw I was parked there, as I was out of the office later when she got off work. but she was gone when I got back at right around 5, so she's not waiting around, or at least didnt today, for H to get back from out of town, which I used to think she did. We'll see if she stays out of the building tonight when I pick up S.
Not much to report with H, he is pleasant and warm, says ILY first sometimes, said he's looking forward to a little time together for tv when I get home, and "maybe we can have some snuggle time and even naughty time after that".
I'm not sure what to make of any of it, and am especially puzzled as to why ow looked and sounded so intimidated today. I don't believe I was mistaken about that.
