So I'll resist the urge to call him and ask to eat dinner together.
Wow, I resisted that urge for what 45 minutes....... I gave in and sent a text message "Are you interested in something to eat? I buy."
He replied "I ate a few hours ago and not hungry. thank you for your offer"
I sent back "Ok, just thought I'd ask. Won't have the opportunity for awhile"
He replied "Ya I should have waited but i was very very hungry and we gotta wax the engines shortly" (fire engines for the parade sat.)
So I sent back "No problem"
He replied "Thank you"
I wrote all of that out because it shows a change in how I interact w/H. Particularly the part where I replied "no problem". This is a place where I have made a big change. In the past, even before he left, if I would ask H to do something and he would decline, I would get very upset and even angry. I see how wrong that was of me. I want him to see the things that I recognize are wrong of me and see that I am changing them. Actions speak much louder than words. He declined an invitation and I passed it off as "no problem".
H has declined my last two invitations. He has seemed interested but he has had prior committments. I can't try to read into it.......... No more feelings...........strictly actions!!!!!!!!
