I hate when I allow these waves of emotions to control me.
Last night my H starting IM me on the computer. One thing led to another and he offered to come over. So he did and once again we had sex. Here is the thing, we have been doing this for almost 3 months, just getting together for sex. And last night was very nice. He told me how I was so much more fun to be with (in bed) and how he enjoyed it so much more. I know that men have a different perspective on sex than woman, so can you men out there answer some questions for me?
1. Is it possible that my H is just using me for sex? Is that something that men do?
2. Should I continue to be open to him in this area? Is this a good thing that can bring us closer together - or is that just thinking about it like a woman?
Well then afterwards, he stays for a while and starts talking. He told me that he had been thinking about how he was planning to do several things to his new truck (bedliner, cover, etc.). He said that he came to the conclusion that it would be unfair to me for him to buy those things right now because I have been putting off things that I want. He used the example of the cosmetic dental work that I have been putting off. So I'm thinking, that's great, he's thinking about me and at least future financial plans. That's good, right?
And finally, how can I be open to him but still be detached enough to not miss him and to not have such a strong desire to be with him? Every good interaction between us leaves me craving more. And that leads to bad things -- I'm not going into the details -- but NY, I need a tongue lashing right about now.... The worst of it is, that the same advice I give others, I can't seem to practice myself........
Sometimes I wish I didn't love him so much....then I wouldn't care and this wouldn't be so difficult........
I have called to make an appt w/one of the coaches....anyone care to share their experiences w/me?
