No I don't think Wal-mart sells crystal balls. Darn it.

Thanks for cheering me up. I don't like Friday nights. My piano lessons used to be scheduled on Friday evenings, so on the Fridays my H was off he would go with me and then we would go out to dinner and maybe shopping or whatever afterwards. So I really seem to miss him on Friday nights. But it's ok. I worked my 12 hour shift, got a cheeseburger and some ice cream on the way home and now I'm having a pajama party of my own. I've had plenty of company of the four legged furry kind.

I am just reminded of how thankful I am for Jake, my golden retriever. My H and I brought him home when he was 8 weeks old, and he is almost 4 now. My husband moved out within the same week that my labrador retriever died. (I had both dogs together for a few years) Jake has really helped to fill the void that was left by both of them. You know how in DBing we are taught not to tell our spouses we love them. That was so hard for me, so I started saying it to Jake every night. Stupid, huh?

My situation -- I haven't seen my H in over a week. Well, since our unofficial "date" last Thursday. He has been at work most of that time. He called me when I was driving home from work and we talked for about an hour. Mainly about our jobs. I went into the convenience store while talking on the phone (rude I know, but I did). So I was standing in front of the junk food rack and I said to my H, "you have to help me make an important decision". He cautiously says "what". I said "cupcakes or Ho Hos? He started laughing, it was so good to hear . That was something that I missed for quite a while. I missed hearing him laugh. We used to just be stupid together and end up giggling and laughing.

I was thinking today, way back when, it was hard when he told me he didn't love me and that he loved her. But it hurt even worse when he told me "she" was his best friend. So it is good to have my friend back - well, somewhat back. The hard part is reading my limits. How much attention from me is good and how much starts to smother him. I know that right now I need to let him "lead".

So, my H family are coming in from out of town for a family reunion as they do each year. His parents and siblings have in the past stayed with us. His family is planning on staying with me and I welcome them and they know it. I'm trying to decide if I should just go ahead and take off the week that they are going to be here or not. I want to be able to be a good hostess but I don't want to interfere w/my husband's time w/his parents. He only sees them once or twice a year. They won't be coming until July, but I need to get my schedule requests to my manager in the near future.

Gotta Go