You will figure this out. I can imagine balancing detaching and just being happy to be with your H is difficult. I'm not sure you really need to detach with the attention you are getting from your H. Just keep remembering to give him space and take your time and I think you are going to do a great job. I am so impressed by the way you've handled things. keep it up!
Oh and I will get a kiss one way or another
But what is happiness except the simple harmony between a man and the life he leads? ~Albert Camus