I do worry too much! I just hate not knowing where things are going. I know how I want my life to be and H is a very large part of that, in many ways.
I really enjoy the closeness w/him but it makes me miss him and want this to work even more!
I am finding it very difficult to detach when I'm getting "teased" with moments of affection and closeness followed by H pulling away.
But I need to remember how much better this is than a few months ago. 3 months ago, H hated me and I kept lashing out at him in anger. That's when he talked about D. I know I need to be thankful that he hasn't talked about it at all in a little over a month. Then when he did talk about it (end of March) it was to say that he wasn't 100% sure it was what he wanted.
Yeah, I do have a lot more to be thankful for than I realize. Sometimes I just need to be reminded of that!
