Trying to find our way to happiness

[ValerieA]

I am barely hanging on right now. I feel like I could very easily let go, too easily.

H is in one foul mood right now. He's depressed and on his first drink of the night.

I was playing on the computer, H was listening to his boss on his cell, sat next to me and said, "You really should leave me......Do you hear me? This is the last time I'm telling you. You should just leave me."

My eyes filled up with tears, but I held them there and said, "Is that what you really want? Do you really want me to leave you?" H said, "No, I'm just.....", and he got up and went outside with (bf) without finishing his sentence.

I'm so tired of this. I'm really tired and losing more and more hope each minute.

JV