Quote: Now...if you ARE angry or upset with him, best not to fib about it. For the time being it may be best to keep your negative emotions to yourself BUT that also means don't display them on your face, in your actions, etc.
You're right, Sage. Like I posted yesterday, I've noticed that I've been feeling down for awhile, and I know I haven't done much to not show it since H got back. It's been so hard with all the draining emotions I've dealt with lately. I know I need to stop this NOW, and I'll do my best to be upbeat. I have to remind myself that H is still home, and I want him to be, so I need to make being home appealing for H.
Ok now. We went out for dinner last night with the kids, and we had a nice time like I knew we would.
H's co-worker came to the house when we returned so they could prepare their equipment for today's installs. When they were done, H asked if he could go play cards. I said sure, it was fine. H said, "Are you sure? I won't go if it's going to bother you." I said, "It's fine. I'm not bothered." He said thanks and gave me a hug and small kiss. As he was leaving, H said, "Alright, I'll see you when I get back. You can call me if you get bored or whatever, and I'll call you when I'm on my way home. ILY ." I told H, "ILY, too. Good luck!"
I have been waiting for a month (it seems like forever) for H to say those words to me again! He did, and I think I can see a little of my PMA emerging !
Another positive, H called me several times throughout the night. The first call was about 20 minutes after he left to say, "I just wanted to thank you again for letting me go play tonight. I appreciate it." After that, H called every hour or so just to chat a bit and let me know how he was doing. I received another "ILY" in one of those calls.
I was asleep by the time H got home. He got back very late, or I should say very early before dawn. I don't particularly like it, but when playing poker, it happens on occasion. Anyway, I remember H getting into bed and pulling me close.
A few hours later when it was time to get up, H wanted ! I can't remember the last time when this went on in the morning! Later, we got dressed, had breakfast, and then H had to go to work. He gave me a back rub then a kiss followed by a smile with an "ILY".
A very nice start to hopefully a very nice day!
Thanks for listening.
JV
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown
I told H, "ILY, too. Good luck!"
! I can't remember the last time when this went on in the morning! Later, we got dressed, had breakfast, and then H had to go to work. He gave me a back rub then a kiss followed by a smile with an "ILY".
