Hi Sage,

So question, is it progress that I actually thought when I wrote that, that it should be me that values me the most?

Ok, had the cry and the pampering will have to wait!

Got home and talked to M, (neighbor/friend), my next door neighbor now has a Rottweihler that apparently kept running away from it's owner and coming over here. He has it staked right against my fence so when the shelties go out they are barking their fool heads off. Not good in a subdivision and I don't want to draw attention to us, at least anymore than everyone already thinks I'm the crazy dog lady!

Came in the house and both boys had been really sick today. Put them out to potty and then Shimmer had to have a bath, Frostbyte I just wiped off. Called the vet as anyone that remembers 2 years ago it was Frostbyte that I couldn't get to stop vomiting and he ended up throwing up tons of blood all over the place and in bad shape for several days. She said keep a close eye on them and if I have problems overnight I can bring them in tomorrow morning.

Back to the job.

Realizations:

1. I'm still emotional, I KNOW this by now.
2. I still have a job, so I'm overreacting
3. Things still haven't been worked out so I don't know exactly what is going to happen; other than one brief sentence in the meeting.
4. I am definitely being a whiny wimp. I have read some threads on this bb where people are dealing with things in their life that I WOULD NOT be able to deal with at all.
5. I am actually very fortunate.
A. I have a home
B. I have friends
C. The kids and I are all still together and having fun trying new activities


I still miss D, at least the D I married. But I did realize the other day that the R we had even in the beginning probably isn't one I would want to go back to exactly like it was then! Think that might be progress.

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"