I lurk here daily. It keeps me honest. I did reconcile with DH. We have ups and downs, but for the most part things are peachy. I have enjoyed watching your metamorphisis!
to be honest...the bad part of the withdrawals lasted a good week. then it got better for me. I think it took a good month or so for all to get semi-normal. but I was glad when I did. I think the withdrawal symtoms make people think they aren't ready to get off...but it really is a matter of getting thru it. Of course, if after the withdrawals are gone and you get back into that depression funk, then maybe you DO need them. at that point, you could re-evaluate! I personally think you sound strong, so maybe it is a good time to think about it. I think the daily side effects got to be a bummer after awhile for me. Plus, I was HUNGRY all the time! but, it did save me when I was so down and depressed.
I do the Firm and some other DVD's for fitness. I like it . check it out!