Chapter 3: Spring and the Journey Continues

[psluke]

I guess my commiseration is all I have to add today! However, I do believe there will come a time when we get past it!

Hi Deb,

Thank you and I agree I just wish it would HURRY!!!!!!

But on the other hand I want to heal completely, not rush through it and paper over holes that are left inside of me.

Chatting with a friend today that is recently divorced and they are already involved elsewhere and I was thinking that another R would help to not think of that list so much.

BUT, for me that would be a superficial healing and would leave the mess inside. Been there, done that and didn't even get a t-shirt! I may be blond, but I won't go that route again as it definitely didn't work for me!!!!!!!!

I apparently have to take the 'long way home', what fun.

Today I took a journey through time. I went through my organizer on my computer back to when I was dating D, the house shopping, house purchase, wedding, and some of the stuff we did together that I always thought we enjoyed. It isn't a journal but it has dates, times and brief descriptions in it.

Then it came to the A meetings and times D didn't come home on time, got to work late, took long lunches, half days off.

I have no idea why I did that today but I think I am still trying to put the man I thought I married into a perspective with the man I now know I married and they sure as H*LL aren't the same person!!!!!!