Chapter 3: Spring and the Journey Continues

[sage]

So if I can logically put things in some sort of place and even understand a lot of D's actions, WHY do sometimes I still feel so terribly unhappy? Today I really just want to sit and cry and have no desire to do anything with my life. Is it all PMS or something deeper that I am missing in my thinking? I really don't know and wish I knew how to address these feelings.

well, I can't answer this for you but I can for me...I can see and understand and empathize with the motivations and actions of people, Pam, when the end result is them "hurting" me and while there's some comfort in being able to empathize, it still hurts and feels sad and makes me angry. IOW, it's a gift to be able to see the gray and in some ways it unites us in the "human condition" but it really doesn't take away the sadness or emotion instantly, does it? In fact, sometimes for me it makes it worse because not only do I start feeling MY pain but I can also start to feel the pain and hurt of the other, too.

I know I've mentioned this before but have you ever read anything about being a "highly sensitive person"? You might find some interesting stuff there.

Sage