You know I can look at what happened and come up with a gray logical reason D did some of the things he did. I suppose in some ways I might be able to do the same with J. Although it isn't as easy as she laughed in my face about it and I think D was genuinly sorry to hurt me.

So if I can logically put things in some sort of place and even understand a lot of D's actions, WHY do sometimes I still feel so terribly unhappy? Today I really just want to sit and cry and have no desire to do anything with my life. Is it all PMS or something deeper that I am missing in my thinking? I really don't know and wish I knew how to address these feelings.

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"