The kids and I made the show n go Saturday. Really a nasty yucky day.

I am finding as I am making these drives that I dwell on David and Janice. But in the dwelling I try to put each memory in a perspective that is logical, not black/white and not strictly emotional! That doesn't mean my first thoughts aren't that way but maybe for me what I HAVE to do is go through all of the experiences in my head and look for the gray in them so I am at peace to file them away. Not sure but hope that is what my mind is doing!

I really am not unhappy without D in my life, on the other hand I still miss the person I felt he was when I married him. So it is a mix that I haven't arrived at a comfortable place in yet.

Tara didn't do so well Saturday as we discovered she is a mommy's girl and didn't want to stay with S on the course!

FB on the other hand will go with someone that has food! LOL Just like a male, no loyalty. Sorry, couldn't resist!!!

My Shimmer crawled over into S's lap and stayed for awhile, he does appear to be making progress with all of his trips out.

Callie wanted to greet all the dogs and all the people. She finally wore me out and I put her up and gave her lunch!

Shara didn't get to go in but since she has received the lions share of attention lately that is the way it worked out.

Today I drank too much coffee and have the jitters this afternoon on top of the PMS. Such fun! Maybe I will put the jitters to work and get some house cleaning done this evening.

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"