I felt like I was reading my own thread. We have been experiencing the same rollercoaster ride. Our sitches are so similar. My H was actually a youth minister at one time. He has lost his walk. He recently told me he wasn't spiritually ready to go back to church. I wanted to say, hmmm... you don't think going to church might help that.
Just like you,I can't understand why I am fighting this. My H is selfish and self-absorbed too. I also am wondering if this is really what I want for the rest of my life and is it worth fighting for.
Today, I did feel God speaking to me. To give this time and he would change my H. I just don't know how to keep going on, though. I know DBing is the thing to do, I just don't have the energy.
Good for you on leaving for the weekend. I have thought about doing that for a few weeks now. Maybe I will get the courage to do that myself.
I hope you have a great time. Thanks for stopping by my thread. I will definately keep checking in on you.
