Today is somewhat better because I have decided to take the baby and go to my parents' house for the weekend. I just could not face another weekend of being around H, waiting for him to fulfill my expectations that I know I shouldn't be having. I am much more at peace when he is at work, it's when he's around that I am in turmoil. Pretty screwed up, huh?!

I am leaving the other 4 kids (Aged 3-9) at home so I know there shouldn't be any irresponsible behavior! Of course, if my H really wanted, he could talk me into staying, but I doubt he will. So I will go and let my Mom pamper me!

H 40 Me 40 married 15 years 5 children aged 2-11 Bomb 2-6-05 Now we are piecing, I think