Not much time to post this past week...winding down work at my current job. When I start my new job on the 20th my internet time is going to be hardly any at all! I'm going to have to be a lot more efficient about posting and replying to people on their threads.
Things are going well tidying things up at work. Everyone is being super supportive. I'm still amazingly calm which is both strange and good (and somewhat hard to believe!).
h finished his first week at his new position and can I just say that he's kicking butt all over the place? He and his office mate won a "scavenger hunt" contest that took them around to the courthouses in the area, etc. Also, everyone got their first assignments and had until the 24th to complete the first part of it...well, h finished the first part in about 36 hours and submitted it to his boss who responded by giving h another assignment which is VERY time sensitive and extremely important. It's some sort of response that has to be filed with the court and h is going to write it!!! I can't believe how talented he is at this lawyering stuff
One of the other reasons I haven't been posting is that I've been sort of irked at myself...having a tough time a bit. I'm finding myself back in some bad habits...mostly silent ones but things like being watchful and suspicious and putting up with a lot of negative thoughts in my head...I've been overanalyzing everything h says or does and really personalizing things too...ok, I think I've listed all the bad stuff! ASSuming, Analyzing, Personalizing...what am I leaving out???
The good news is that I haven't been reactive. The bad news is that even though this stuff is mostly in my head I can feel it change the tone of the room and the r, you know?
So...I've been focusing again on my internal peace...started listening to some tapes again that always calm me down...trying to speak h's ll, trying to take good care of myself. I know that all of this is simply a reaction to a lot of stress but it's still been hard to see me lapsing again...Good thing is that I SEE it, right?
Anyway...gotta go be productive around this house!
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
but things like being watchful and suspicious and putting up with a lot of negative thoughts in my head...I've been overanalyzing everything h says or does and really personalizing things too...ok, I think I've listed all the bad stuff! ASSuming, Analyzing, Personalizing...what am I leaving out??? 
