This was the celebration weekend...the one that h starting hinting about last August! He planned the most thoroughly decadent and wonderful time for us.
Saturday afternoon he "led" me to the locale...the fanciest hotel in town! Our room was gorgeous and had the perfect view.
Saturday night we went casual...walked around a bit, settled in early. Sunday we had breakfast in the room and then we walked and walked all over town. Walking together is one of those things that just works for us. I think it's the combination of the endorphins and the opportunity for conversation.
He had made an appointment for me to get a massage Sunday afternoon so off I went. It was great. So relaxing! They did some extra aromatherapy at his request so I went back to the room completely unstressed!
Sunday night we went out for a fancy dinner at a restaurant in the hotel. The food was great. We had gone there many years ago and had a huge fight during the first course so it was good to exorcise THAT ghost!
One of the things that devastated me during the bomb dropping was hearing "this has never felt right, you know that." It felt like such a rewriting of history...a long history that had held such a connection for us. Sunday night at dinner h asked me if I agreed that we were just meant to be -- yah, with hard work and all to be sure -- but a connection that feels like it is meant to be there. I said "yes" and we talked about our past a bit...how we had met and changed and grown...
Monday we slept super late and then headed home. We did a bunch of errands in the afternoon and relaxed last night watching the Sox get killed.
I gave my notice today. I have to admit I'm internally freaking out a bit. I can't believe I'm going to leave this job! I've been here for 7 years!
I asked h this am if he thought what I was doing was insane...he said "NO. it's bold". After I gave my notice I called him and he said all the right stuff -- not platitudes but a real understanding of how scary and right this feels all at once.
HE starts his new job next monday!!! I can't wait to celebrate with him.
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
