Jo, Sometimes I get a "gut feeling" and it comes true. For an example when CPS took the kids because of her dogs last year, I asked them to tell her no dogs because if I did I knew she would D me. I told the CPS case worker "please tell W that she can't have dogs or animals, because if I do she will D me" They said "no thats your resposibility".
This was at the end of May 2004 and on Jan 5, 2005 we were D.
Tons of things happen to me like this.
My gut feeling now is to let her do what ever she wants, keep calm no matter what happens, put it in Gods hands and it will work it self out. Its a crazy feeling but also a peaceful feeling. I see her making a lot of mistakes and by me letting her fall without advice on what to do and not to do, she will one day come back as a real W and a good mother.
I have always wondered where these thoughts and feelings come from?
I'm not inviting him in in these circumstances, even if he wanted to, but I will stay normal and not initiate any rows.
I am thinking of trying Linda's idea of going out, but I'm not dressing up as I usually do this to seduce him so he would think I was trying to get off with him.
I believe we all have a life plan before we come here, a job which God wants us to do in our life-time, which we know about and if we know how to use our 6th sense - our intuition correctly, then it helps to steer us in the direction of our life plan.
This isn't always what we think we want or need, it's what we set out to do in the first place. I do not want to be divorced from my H, but it was obviously not part of my plan to stay married at that particular phase in my life.
That's not to say it wouldn't happen again, more that we both had growing to do and couldn't stay as the couple that we were.
In the cave man days, 6th sense was VITAL to our survival. If we didn't have precognition - an aware of what was going to happen before it happened - we would have been eaten by bears etc. Our 6th sense told us to get out of the way before we became the bear's breakfast! It was an essential part of our survival instinct.
These days in modern times, we don't face daily threats to our lives so the 6th sense faded - we don't really need it for physical survival anymore.
However, it's still there in all of us and can be used if we know how to use it. For instance, sometimes if someone is walking up behind you, you can sense that someone is watching you, before you have seen them, even if it is an animal. This is your intuition, your 6th sense, working for you.
I was always able to have the precognitive dreams (don't know why) and more recently since my baby died, I see images of things and I can pick up on what my dd is thinking right before she says it.
The 6th sense in me seems to have developed a lot more as I developed in other areas and I do find it very helpful. It is very practical as well as comforting.
Apologies to any strictly religious people who find this offensive. I love God too and believe he meant us to use all our senses.
