Andy's not bothered about the lack of space in my house, but I think you're right about it being too big a step for him, so he backtracked.
I have seen this before and to be honest due to the length of time I have been DB'ing, I am ready to just tell him to get lost. My life would be more lonely but it would be easier and calmer. Honestly, he doesn't deserve me.
When I have asked to see 1 of the kids alone in the past, he stipulates I have to have all of them or it's not fair on the others, except on birthdays. Therefore he wouldn't buy that argument and it's back to him having all the power and me ASKING to have my own flesh and blood. Ugh.
Also, right at this minute I keep crying and stuff so I don't think dd1 should be here with me in this mood. I keep it to myself fairly well in front off dd4 but I am rubbish at hiding it from the others.
She already knows he has really upset me as she asked in her note if I was okay. Honestly, she deserves better than either of her parents. I am at the end of my tether with the whole sitch, not just my R with H. That is only a part of it.
I am actually thinking of leaving this site permanently soon if my sitch doesn't pick up.
