I think I'll probably go for the pink as I've just thought, red is a sensual colour and that's not really the image I want.
I think I'll go for the hot pink combat pants and this T shirt that says 'I'm the Girl Your Parents Warned You About' and this lambs wool pink cardi that he bought me for Christmas 2000. It's just plain pink but on the sleeves there are these hand knitted flowers on it so it's quite pretty.
It cost him about �70 at the time, I think, because it's hand made. It's looking a bit worn now after 5 years of hand washing but I still love it and it was a present from him so that might earn me a few points!
No, writing about the trial isn't theraputic. It makes me want to pick a fight with him. Remembering the pain makes me wonder why I love him, but that isn't productive so I try to work off my negative energies before I see him.
What IS theraputic is writing about all the good things in the R and there is that in the book as I started it from age 16 when I fell in love. I needed to so the reader would get a sense of the level of loss.
I'm also looking forward to writing up when he came back into my life, as I haven't got to that bit yet! I'm about 10 months off it yet.
I found writing about my last pregnancy theraputic as I was crying my eyes out all day when I wrote that, so I figured I had repressed emotion that needed releasing.
I wanted to end the book with our next wedding, but I don't reckon he'll get around to it in time so I'm going to end it when he said 'happy anniversary' as I think that's a great line
I really must go to bed now, it's half past midnight. I was talking on msn to my FATHER IN LAW!!!!!!!
