Olive branch - mmm, right now the way I feel I want to tip the entire bowl of Greek salad over his head
Yes I know he is aware that he has disappointed me, I just wish sometimes I could feel like he thinks I'm worth something. Your W is right in that respect,it feels totally crappy when your H prioritizes meetings with other's over you. I'm only his life partner, after all.
I figured since he and the kids were going to this party I would rise my PMA by doing some home baking with Alicia. She really liked it and got the cake mixture everywhere and 'helped' me put the icing on. I did it more for my kids than him, to be honest, and to cheer myself up. But he did like it.
I was trying my hardest not to be angry in front of him so if I thought I was likely to say something angry, I just nodded or said nothing as that is safer. IF IT'S NOT POSITIVE DON'T SAY IT, or at least try hard not to. But his car IS very nice and since he's my H and we are dating, I kind of see it as my car also. I am looking forward to trips out in it and thinking in our future we might even go on holiday with that. So I was able to speak positively to him about it.
He was compromising asking me to come to his town and come earlier etc. I probably will. I just sometimes feel I am doing all the running and since we are dating I want him to give a little more, but I must try not to have many expectations - it's just difficult not to when he has acknowledged we are a couple and even told this friend of his about it.
I am in a different position than most DB'ers.
I've also not been back to his house since I lost my baby and am a bit worried about it. Plus, ex-ow may be there (I don't know if she will be). Maybe I should just bite the bullet and go. He will be moving eventually and the plan was that we move together.
My evening? I am writing up the trial in my book, not exactly a thing to improve my mood so I reckon I should leave that alone and just watch a film or something. Not a romance, though.
Maybe I'll watch Shrek 2 again because he got it for me and it's funny.
