More Drama.... H came over last night to see Hannah. We were getting along okay because I left to get my nails and feet done....Relax... When I came back I was confronted with detailed information about the H and OW are really involved. He doesn't like to speak to me much but he calls and texts her constantly. I feel so destroyed...why does he say that he loves me and is so into her. I was willing to give 110% into resolving things but I can't when he give 10% to me and 90% to her. I guess that he goes and hangs out with her and her three kids. Of course he is mad and rude to me because I know so much...but you run into people all over the place that know people. I will never understand how he can leave our beautiful daughter to be involved with OW three kids more. I am devasted today...I didn't want to know more....I did but didn't! I wanted to believe that he was slowing things down with OW to work on our marriage. I have slept about 15 minutes and am just Yuck today. I guess that I need to go dark and that is the last resort. I am a great person and I don't deserve to be tossed around. I am crying and can barely do anything. Why am I so vulnerable to everything he says. I don't know how to break free....I am so scared!
