I'm glad I could help. I'm happy that focusing on Hannah helps and think that you should go have a tickle-fest with her right now!!
Of course you're afraid of going dark. I know I am, and haven't been able to do it yet. I keep trying. I'm glad I never took up smoking, because I sure don't have much willpower.
But maybe you should be more afraid of the slings and arrows he keeps sending your way.