Okay hello everyone! You might think that I am crazy but I feel that I need a lot of help right now. I guess that I need people to really point blank tell me what I should do. H and I talk if we need to but then this morning we were talking about Fourth of July. H said that he doesn't think that we should have a party because as of right now we are not together...and he doesn't know if we will be together then....Why does he say this stuff. Then, H said that he knows that we are married if he likes it or not. I couldn't help it...I know I started crying...how awful of me...I shouldn't have but I culdn't hold it back...it hurt me so bad. I asked him why did he say that....H said that I always here the negative part of things. Well, whats the positive. Now we are here and on Friday night he wrote me that card on how he loves me. WTF??? I feel like he might be throwing me a line and reeling me in and then throws me out even further. I am wondering if he doesn't want a divorce because he doesn't want to pay child support or maybe he never wants to marry again. Sometimes I feel positive and then he gets mean and I always forgive him because I want things to be better. I also am thinking that he might just have fallen out of love with me and says he doesn't want to fight because of what we had...not what we will have ever again. Please give me input. I am suppose to talk to him later this evening. One more thing...his car broke down awhile ago and he might just need me for my credit so that he can get a new one. I wouldn't mind if we were working on M but I can't bare to think that he will be with someone else in a car with my name on it.... I feel like I am going crazy....please help me out of my slump...don't be afraid to say something that will hurt me...I am already hurt!
