I agree with what you said about the language not being acceptable and I do agree that he must have a lot of things built up and that his negative reaction might be to justify in what he is involved in. I just find it so difficult to understand. The conversation that we had was regarding our D not to just chit chat. I did speak to H last night and he said that he wasn't feeling very well and that he is sorry for treating me like that. In my head I was thinking that he has a lot of frusteration built up. I did say that the names he called me and the way that he spoke to me was not acceptable. I understand that he didn't feel well but that is not a reliable excuse. I told him that arguing is not going to get us anywhere and that we will have to communicate for at least 17 more years so why do it in an argumentive fashion. H agreed but I still sense frusteration. I do still love my H but I know that he is not where I need him right now so that does make it easier to detach a little more everyday. To be honest with all of you I am having the hardest time ever. My family wants me to divorce him and I feel that the decision is mine alone. I feel like I am going through enough right now that I do not deserve to have my family harping on me. If and when I am ready I will do what I feel is right. I hate going through all of this torment....I think that I need to DB my family...lol! I am not rying to sound "weird" but I really don't know what my purpose is anymore. I know to be a good mommy for my D1 but I feel that she can sense what is going on. This might sound silly but I wonder what have I done so wrong in life that I have my H being an a*s and now my family...especially my mom. I don't know what to do now...Please help me to decide....I wish my H would change but I doubt it. Any info would be appreciated
