Hello Everyone.... I wanted to say hello and tell everyone that I have been thinking about all of you. I am sorry that I haven't posted in awhile...things have just been crazy. I think that I had my last kidney procedure yesterday....Yeah! My computer at home is crazy so I can't get online from there so its weird without all of you.
H and I were getting along for a few days and then BANG! evertyhing went back to him wanting to argue although he says that he doesn't want to. Today he told me that for sure we are over and he doesn't want to be with me anymore. He will not let me pick up my Stepson today...so I guess that is my punishment. We actually were getting along great...he even came over a few days in a row. Then we started talking about the OW and he said that he hasn't stopped seeing her....it hurt me because we had been intimate again...I thought things were going in a good direction....I know....NO EXPECTATIONS! My birthday in on the eleventh and I hate that we aren't together for it. I think that he is serious about it being over this time. He called me so many names I could barely breathe when we got off the phone because I started crying. I don't know what is going on but I feel that whenever something is wrong with me then he starts being mean.....maybe I am wrong but thats what I felt today. I will be in touch soon. You are all in my prayers...if you have any suggestions for me I would appreciate them.
Does it really have to be over or is he just mad? Yikes
