Okay...I see what you are all saying but I don't know what was wrong in our relationship except maybe it got boring because we were working to live instead of working to go on trips and so on....I did ask H at one point what he felt was wrong in our R and he said that nothing was wrong except that I always let me do what he wanted...Well, I can't get mean now. i trusted him with all of my heart so I let him go out and do things because I didn't think anything. I wanted him to be a Husband and be able to hang with the GUYS if he wanted to. We had a great sex life...not boring(he says so too) I do think that part of it is the sneaking around it's fun....gives him a high. I really don't know how I can fix that unless he comes home.
D.... I haven't spoken to the OW purposely....the other day I was waiting for my doctors to call and I answered the (private) number....it was her. I should have hung up but I had such a wonderful weekend with H when I saw him that I was extremely suprised that he was with her on Sunday.
I want to move forward and I want him to stop but not for me...I want him to stop because he is ready..that is why I am not pressuring him as hard as it is. Believe me...if he was to come home I would not want him to go back to her...so of course I want it now but I am using my patience...well trying...lol! If we do get back together I want it to be for the both of us.
