Hello Everyone.... Sorry I haven't been around lately. I have been having a crazy and strange time lately. On May 5th was H birthday and I offered to bring D1 to him so that he could see her.(His car broke down) He said no because he had his softball game and things going on....then I came to find out that he saw OW in the morning and she gave him hickeys(?) all over his neck and he didnt want me to see him. H tried to say that they didnt have sex but they had met up for a few minutes...(What a great few minutes) Then that night before his game he let her take him to dinner. I wanted to do something for his birthday with him. I saw him the next day after all of this and I acted fine but my heart was destroyed. A lot has happend since then but thats how it started. I did see H this weekend because our niece had her prom and wanted me to come over and help her get ready. We got along okay...I just have a lot of thoughts in the back of my head. I spoke to H yesterday morning and then I didnt call him all day long so he kept calling me...like 5 times but I did not answer(I actually didnt hear the phone ring) I called him back later before D1 went to bed because he wanted to talk to her. Then at about 1130pm last night my cell phone rang and it was H he called to let me know that he misses me and that he loves me. I said thank you and told him that I love him...but that I need to get back to sleep. I dont know if he was having a moment or what....I dont know how to act now....My life is so confusing...My heart is like a sponge anymore...I absorb the hurt and would love to absorb the love. What should I do....H is coming over tonight to see D1....please respond....It been hard without you all!
