Well, its H bday and I did say Happy Birthday to him. He was thankful and of course started getting a little rude. H let me know that him and OW are tryong to work out their difference and he still loves her. Why do I let him do this to me. H should be putting his efforts into us not the OW. Well, Fu*k them both. I let him hurt me to many times. Now I am wonderfing what is wrong with me for letting him keep abusing me. I guess that I am starting to realize that it will not work out. I am sad but I guess that I will live..I do realize that I will get better later on in life. Trying to be strong....but belive me I wish that I knew how to be rude so that I might hurt him but I dont have it in me. I asked him for his address and he gave our house...I said no where you are living...then he asked if I was sending the D papers there....I told him I wouldn't make his birthday that great...H said that he doesn't want a D...how am I suppose to take that...he told me that he sees OW and they kiss but what am I suppose to do wait around until they have decided to do something. I really would like to know what to do? Any suggestions on what to say or do? I always felt that the only way to make him feel the way that I so is to succeed and not show pain. Any suggestions?
