Hello Everyone... Things are still really crazy. H is still rude and selfish. Tomorrow is H birthday and he hasn't said anything about doing anything. H hasn't seen D1 since Sunday and that hurts me. D1 likes to pick up my cell phone and say daddy. That kills me. My D1 is so special to me I dont know what I would do without her. H was rude today...he hurt my feelings by telling me that he never wanted another child that we had one because I wanted one....thats bull sh@t....we tried for a girl! I told him that if he felt that way then it is not necessary for him to see D1. He said that I am flipping everything around(of course I am doing something wrong) H said that he didn't want another child but he wouldn't give D1 up for the world. Hello you left her mommy and left her for another woman. I need to stop allowing him to hurt me...I think that he gets off from hurting me. I wonder where the man is that I married....he is not there anymore...Aliens anyone! lol Well, things don't look well for a reunion and now I feel that H is holding me away from my stepson. I hate him but at the same time still care for him. I hate the way that he treats me now! Well, I will get over this soon and be that happy person again. Sometimes I think that if we were to ever work this out my family would not want to be around me...they have a lot of anomosity built up for him right now. Well, should I call H for his birthday or not? Any suggestions?
