Okay here it goes. I survived! LOL H picked up D1 and of course brought his mom for moral support...I guess he doesnt want to be around me alone. I had mixed feelings when he came. I love him but I hate him at the same time. I did give him a quick hug and he told me that he is sorry.(I guess that he is sorry that he doesnt want to be together) I just smiled...I wanted to cry because I miss D1 so bad right now. I spoke to H sister and she said that she thought that we would have a future together until she spoke to him last night and he was so defensive over the OW. I am trying to detach more and more. H wanted to know what I was going to do until I pick D1 up tonight....I said just a little of this and that. H wanted my D to stay the night with him. I am just not ready for that yet! I wish things could be different right now and now I am confused that we might never have a chance again. I dont know where to go from here but I am trying. Does anyone have any suggestions?
