Hello Everyone... I got locked out of my other post so I had to open a new one. Maybe it is a new start...lol!
Well, this weekend was a crazy one. I didnt feel that I could stay in the house....I was feeling a litlle down. So...I packed up some clothes and went to Palm Desert to enjoy the sun. It was beautiful there and i was able to have a lot of fun with D1. On Saturday night the Marriot had a Jazz Concert and the weather was beautiful. D1 went with me and enjoyed herself. On Sunday we went in the pool.....D1 had a smile on her face the entire time. She also was pretending to jump in the pool with me holding her hads of course. I kept myself occupied so that I didnt have to think about anything...it worked a little. (A little is better than none) I just felt that I had to run from the entire situation so that I wouldn't go insane. H is staying with his sister which is within 2 miles from the OW...but congrats to them.....I hope that they are happy. I am trying to only focus on me and D1. Just wanting to stay busy. H came to the house last night at about 9pm....he wanted to see D1...hello....doesnt he know that she would be asleep! He got her up and visited for a few. Then he said that he was going to stay the night. I didnt even care if he came over. Well, he is going to get the rest of his things out today. You think that he would have done that when I was gone. I am starting to build up hate in my heart and I dont like that. I am trying to be happy...but I am sad still too!
Oh! H told me this morning that all he wants for us is to be happy together....(What is this)
P.S. Thank all of you for your support on Friday and Saturday. I was really having a hard time and you all made it easier for me. Please continue with your prayers and thoughts. I need the strength.
