The "forgiveness" letter that you wrote as you were journaling was absolutely beautiful... It brought tears to my eyes... You are an amazing writer! So much of what you wrote in that letter I could relate to w/ my sitch. I also find it quite interesting that you continue to see your W looking tired, gaining a bit of weight, broken out, etc.; however, you, on the other hand are improving yourself in so many ways. What is with these WAS'S?? Can they not see that although they THINK they are doing the "right" thing, that it is quite obvious that perhaps they are not as their bodies are reacting in a negative way. Although I have not seen my H in quite some time now, the last time I DID see him, he looked sooooo tired, THINNER than ever, and generally had a sad look to him. I have lost weight since our seperation (partly intentional due to more exercise and also due to the stress of the sitch), but in general I feel like I look alot better than I did when we were together. (I have a nice tan going now too as the weather in "Sunny Calif." has been quite nice lately. I just do not understand the WAS's, nor do I ever think I will. I wish that your W could see what an amazing husband and incredible father you truly are, Gabriel. I wish my H had the ability to express his feelings the way you were able to do in your "forgiveness" letter... Keep up the positive attitude and hopefully soon a bit of it will rub off on me soon! You are such an inspiration to so many people on this BB! I know that no matter what happens w/ my sitch and my upcoming divorce, that I will be okay b/c of people like you who continue to stay so strong! Take Care! -Kim
