Thanks for the WOAs! Much appreciated, K, Martha, Wes, SA3, everyone!
Wes, thanks for the invite. I'll be laying down the specifics in a bit. S5 and I should have a blast.
This D feel is interesting. For clarification, I did not send her the letter. I'm not going to gift her with my thoughts.
Yes, Jo, there is hurting but also confident peace, knowing that I did what I could to save my M, and being quite happy with my improvements. The R lives on and hopefully will be enhanced but we shall see.
WASs are in interesting breed. Our staff secretary is a WAW who left and D her husband 2 yrs ago. To me, she fell apart last week after her BDay about what had she done, crying, how she might have tried harder (H was alcoholic, she went to MC alone for 1+ yrs, so she did try very hard), but had major regrets about D. To W, she is showing a rosy happy picture of "You're starting a new chapter in your life!" (mutual friend shared this w/me) Why can't they be honest w/each other about the positives but also the negatives?
I woke up this am and looked in the mirror, and smiled. A confident smile. I feel like the world is my oyster - I'm fit, look great, have all the degrees I want, a nice career and increasing income, and the ability to fund myself and S5 well. I'm close to a big promotion at work (tenure), I know my God like I never have before. Life is good and will continue to get better. There will be bumps in the road, but that is life.
At S5's Tball game last night, I focused on S5. When W called to tell me they were running late due to bad traffic (she left late too), I empathized with her frustration. When she told me she ruined her cellphone by dropping it in her cup of coffee pre-D, I told her I was sorry to hear that. When they arrived 25 min late, I told her I was glad they arrived safely and got S5 out to practice with me. W hovered in the background at the game, filling in MIL about her D, but I just didn't care. I watched S5 play and chatted with other parents. A pretty single woman in her late 20s flirted with me whenever I sat in the stands, and it was nice to receive that attention. W seemed to notice and went to go help in the concession stand. I truly have no desire toward an R right now. Its all about S5 and me. No distractions.
Martha, a massage sounds great. I'm a bit sunburned right now (many hrs at the beach this past weekend ), but I will follow that great idea in a few days. I do miss another's touch, and that would be a nice safe way to get it. Do you think I can find a nice buxom massage therapist?
Just a brief witness to how important it is to DB in a hard, disciplined, intense manner during your sitch. That has saved me from a long hard fall. Following the worst event in my life, I feel like a male lion (alright, not much of a mane, but stay with me here, there's a point to this ), okay with being away from his pride right now, enjoying the sensation of his muscles rippling as he walks, and knowing that he truly owns his territory, as he wanders afield. I know myself folks, like I haven't before. Thank you for helping to make that happen.
W will have plenty of space and time. Hopefully, she will grow. At least for the sake of S5. Perseverance is a major ingredient for DBing. I have plenty. My work on the R will continue...stay tuned!
), but I will follow that great idea in a few days. I do miss another's touch, and that would be a nice safe way to get it. Do you think I can find a nice buxom massage therapist? 
