Hey there Martha! Yep, I'll keep using this BB to vent once in awhile. I sure am open to critiquing though, so have at it when you see it.
An emotional day at work today. I met with students graduating next week, and received many compliments. This group was aware of my upcoming D (not any more than that), so it moved me quite a bit when they commented on my resilience and softening after things started (I briefly told them about it happening after they became very alarmed about my obvious weight loss/sleep troubles/distraction last Fall). They noted how I've become 'lighter', having a 'greater sense of humor', and becoming the 'most real' instructor that they had in our program. All very good feedback for me to think about. Instruction involves many 'goodbye's' yet I like to capture them in the mindset of continued Rs merely transformed by a graduation.
No communications from W. I intend to stay "gray" (Jo, I mean "grey" ) for the next several days. My PMA is up. Worked out again at the gym last night and ran another 3 miles.
Goals for the next 2 months: 1) Maintain 'friendliness' with W while crossing D threshold. A key to this will be displaying happiness for her positives, regardless of whether they include me. 2) Further improving cooperative parenting. Letting her continue to use me as a sounding board for parenting stuff while avoiding the appearance of critiquing her. 3) Self-Improvement: Physical - maintain weight at this nice trim level, but move into body sculpting; further enhance diet; Sleep - more!; Social/Hobby - more adult friendship outings; carve out more time for guitar/start kayaking; Spiritual - allow more time for readings/prayer; Career - shift to more publication writing; Financial - try to pay off all c.c. debt before moving back into the house in August. 4) Family - plan some trips to see my family with S5 over the summer. Maybe camp with S5 at Yellowstone or near Badlands.
) for the next several days. My PMA is up. Worked out again at the gym last night and ran another 3 miles. 