Thanks for the visits!

I'm not sure why I wnadered in here tonight...maybe it's the wine. I was really more curious on how some of the older folks were doing.

H is now working as a personal trainer at the gym. Work is going well for me. I am surprisingly not worried about H at work anymore. He basically quit bartending because he knew it would make me unhappy. (I didn't tell him not to, just told him that it would make me unhappy, and he should respect that.)

Anyway...my point is...I'm not constantly afraid of who H is talking to at work and how they might be "better" than me. Not sure when that happened, but it just switched off like a light again. It's a great feeling.

I'm learning how to better communicate my insecurities to H. I've learned how to phrase things in "I'm having this problem..." instead of "hey, you caused me to feel this way." It may sound simple, but it has made a world of difference.

I am, finally, again remembering why I was so crazy about H. It's a good feeling. That silly feeling of non-reality, of feeling like we're a big fraud, has faded again. And much faster this time around.

Definately enjoying Phoenix. I love the heat, I love the weather... I haven't made any new friends yet, which is making me restless for some friend time away from H. I was afraid of this happening--I am very picky, and have a hard time making new friends. I am keeping in contact with my good friends back in Indy, and am planning on visiting in the next couple of months. Right now, I'm trying to figure out how to get out and meet people with similar interests as me.

The psycho is finally completely and totally gone!!! Hooray for small things. We changed the cell numbers last month, and the nutcase is officially gone. I couldn't figure out why he would always seem so irritated after she called, but still let her contact him. Oh, he made up excuses...but he would still answer the phone. (Although, to be fair, he did tell her to go away several times...she just "forgot" it.) It was interesting to me to run across Rotzilla's and her H's posts...some good clues in there. I think it may be that, even though he genuinely seemed to dislike her, he did get an ego boost out of it. (I think this is also what was behind the bartending.)

Anyway...didn't mean to be so rambling. We are doing well. I am enjoying living with H again.

Hope everyone is doing well! I really just wanted to stop by to say hello.

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