Ooops - all I can say is clearly I sympathize. I REALLY REALLY screwed up at the begining of all this - after I found out about H's PA I forwarded a sexy email from OW to H to about 6 of his closest friends....thankfully I discovered DBing and got a bit more control - but as you can see from the beginning of this thread it's touch and go at any moment for my emotional state...How did your H react? I told my H I was sorry and that my behavior frightened me - it really was out of character for me - I've apologized several times and just asked him not to judge those hysterical acts given the context. I don't really know how he feels about what I did, but I do feel some respect for myself because I apologized and owned the actions but didn't demean myself - and I totally understand the state I was in and forgave myself -
