Interesting set of posts. I don't know your story but I do know your set of reasons for "desire" sounded eerily familiar to me. I realized too that my style of "initiation" also varies based on the reason. If I am working with reasons 1 or 2 I can initiate, feel good about it and it is a straightforward, pleasant thing. Usually, these intiations get positive results. When I initiate for the "less good" reasons that are accompanied by neediness I initiate in more tentative, tepid ways, am more easily dissuaded and hurt if turned away. IOW things go down hill very quickly if he doesn't provide the type of response I am looking for.
For me and others who don't really know your story what do you attribute your success to? What really helped? What kind of things do you know now that you wished you knew then?
