I must also add that just a week ago, my husband and I had a long talk. He explained that he no longer felt the same way that he used to feel but he wanted to badly. He said that he does love me and wants to get the "fire" back so that we can both share the deep feelings that I now have for him. Last Friday, we had another talk and we both really laid everything on the table. He expressed his feelings to me about how the A started and how the OW was definitely out of the picture and no longer an issue.
I want to believe him and work on my marriage but why do I keep looking for things that are only going to hurt me and our ability to progress. I am so desperate for guidance on this. I am scared that this morning may have been the last straw for him even though he said that he is not mad at me for questioning him. How do I reassure him that I will not bring these things up if I keep doing it. Each time I go a week and then when it's time for him to go to work, I start again. I am telling myself to try and make it 2 weeks without looking for anything or asking any questions. I am hoping that 2 weeks will turn into 3 and so on and so forth...
I have not bought any of the DB books yet but plan to do so this weekend. In the meantime, I am looking for guidance so that fear does not consume my marriage and cause it to end.
